The "Hippie's" Dark Corner Of Thoughts - The Bizzaro Wander

I left Lansing May 11th 2007, almost a month away from my own bed. I do not miss the comforts of home because I live with my grandma, Willie. My original plan of returning home to Lansing on June 4th was changed. I had signed up for 1 summer class at LCC which would have started today. The class was cancelled hence my returning home did not happen. There were not enough students enrolled in Advance Digital Imaging (the only class I needed this summer). Bummer but maybe it was for the best with getting my teeth worked on. I have my first dentist appointment scheduled for June 14th at a specialist in Ann Arbor. Sure, I am nervous but damn excited too! I hope to have teeth by the time my brother gets married on August 18th. Anyway, back to the story of what has been going on since I have been sparse in my entries. I was at Stearns's house in Davison from May 11th until May 27th. I wish I did not have to end my visit with Stearns, Ken, Crystal, Melissa, & the rest of my friends there. I had a wonderful time drinking, hanging out, feeling like I actually fit in somewhere in this big, bad world. Went to a bon-fire at Jim & Shelly’s, drank at the house on several occasions, & generally had a groovy time. Even visited Grandma Howay for 3 days. Then on May 27th, Melissa drove me to Vassar to meet my mom & half-sisters. I told my mom I would come up to watch my sisters. In turn, my mom told me we could go out 1 night to drink & hang out together. I must have been blinded by the chance of drinking with my mom because I said yes. In all my years I have never went out, drinking with my mom. We were never close & I thought that had changed, I was wrong! I have been here at my mom’s house for 12 days so far & that promised night out is not going to happen. She said she really does not have the extra money, she is tired, does not have anyone to watch the girls, excuse after excuse. Ugh, I should have known but I was once again deceived. Of course I brushed the situation off like it was no big deal so that she did not lay a heavier guilt trip on me. My mom is 1 of the best when it comes to guilt trips & I fucking hate that! Come on now, I am an adult, just tell me the fucking truth!!! If she has enough money to go out with her friends, why not me?! I will get over this but it will take time. I will also remember & learn from my mistakes. Tonight I am heading over to my brother & fiancé's house (Bryan & Sarah). Saturday Bryan will turn 24 years old & Sarah thought we could do something for him. I know I will enjoy my break from my mom & sisters!