The "Hippie's" Dark Corner Of Thoughts - Roaming In Life and Religion

Still traveling & visiting in between dentist & doctor appointments. Even though a lot has happened & I have not been writing, I think that is a positive thing. Last year I started writing when life got too tough for me to harbor all of the negative thoughts, events, & situations inside. Sure, I have my days where I get moody, do not want to face reality but that is life man! On those days I stay quiet or out of others paths. No big deal, the night is a promise of a new day. I spent 10 days from June 18th to June 28th at Stearns’s house. Then on June 29th I had my 2nd dentist appointment in Ann Arbor. My dentist said I have to get my gums in a healthy condition before she starts the major work. So, I got my few teeth in my head cleaned. Now I have to do my part & brush them gums back to normal. On Saturday Willie & I drove up to my mom’s house. Willie went to baby-sit my sisters; I had the opportunity to go with Bryan & Sarah down to Grandma Howay’s house. They had to go to church on Sunday for their last meeting with the preacher since they are getting married on August 18th 2007. We stayed at Grandma’s & all of us went to church Sunday morning. I have not gone to church in at least 4 years (maybe longer). No, I did not burst into flames as soon as I walked in but I felt a bit warm! Ha, ha, ha. It is not that I am anti-church; it’s just not my forte. I am religious in my own way but I wish I knew more direction & spiritualism that meshes with how I am & feel. Lack of a concrete religion bothers me from time to time but I have not taken any actions toward solving my dilemma. Mainly because I do not know what to do, where to turn, or even how to look! For now, I am living, having fun, traveling, & not being a dreamy, escape artist of life. Tomorrow I am going over to Crystal’s house for a 4th of July cook-out. I will spend the night at Stearns’s house & come back to Grandma Howay’s house Thursday. Of course my dad’s spending Thursday night at Grandma’s; we will have dinner together, & watch television all evening long. At least I get to chow on Grandma’s yummy breaded pork chops & watch cable TV! There is a bright side to almost everything dude!!! Friday morning I will have to wake up early (5am should not exist) to catch the Amtrak train in Lapeer at 6am. Back to Lansing for 3 weeks but I will be in Davison in time to go see Mushroomhead at the Machine Shop on July 27th! Woot!!!